Thoughts, Ideas.
Summer is ending, and change is soon coming. I am frantically trying to wrap up all the things I need to do before the weather turns.
This week was a bit stressful for several reasons. One is that my mom is unable to get vaccinated and is coming to visit here in about a week. Just being careful like the first months of covid is anxiety driving. Wearing the mask and sanitizing.
Secondly, I loaned my dad money this week because he has $0 in his bank account. He is waiting on a loan or he needs to sell his house. We are so different. I have been frugal and saved the same amount of money that my dad spends in a month or two as I spend in a year. What have I given up? What has he given up? I just feel sad. I don’t resent him, I don’t feel any spite or whatever – I did the right thing. The money has been saved for a rainy day. That day was wednesday. Melissa asked me what my expectations are – none. What if he needs more? I’ll evaluate, then. There is no need to worry about things that haven’t happened yet that are out of one’s control.
It blows my mind what a huge impact that one dream I had (wrote about it on June 13th) had on my relationship with my Dad. I can’t imagine the level of stress and spite I would have felt in this situation otherwise – I probably would not have loaned him the money. I think that would have really hurt our relationship further. Money is tricky and can really mess with friends and family – but I think this is the right decision. His intention is to pay me back. This makes me happy. But I also just feel so far away. Like he is inside a glass bottle somewhere, living his life, I am in mine.
Being in this situation has grounded him. He is more grateful for things around him. This is good. He has also taken to being religious somewhat – mentioning God fairly regularly for a lifelong atheist. No atheists in the foxhole. Strange days.
As far as projects go I have little to show. Many things are half incubated.
List:
-Crazy guy on a bike post of our last trip
-you can read about my other trips here and here
-CGOAB is a great community of cyclists who post info about their tours – great for gathering info and making trip plans.
We tend to write limericks for our locations, here is a preview of one I wrote for port angeles:
Off to Alaska they dock in PA
For one last drink, one final lay
And if your a lady
You’re bound to go crazy
Whenever the seamen come into the bay
Some are too long and some too short
Some red and rashy and some have a wart
But a cock thats just right
That can fuck through the night
Oh, when the seamen come into the port
-Digital Windchime
-tried new joystick, need to do a wind test. May still be too much friction.
-lamp stand for moroccan lights
-coming soon.
-SUPERSHED
-my idea for a tool shed made from the free wood i have been gathering. My idea so far entails leaning it against the house and wrapping it 90 degrees around a corner.
– wood needs to be used by the rainy season.
