The Wall

2 days of digging, stacking and packing

I am feeling very grateful this weekend. It blows my mind that anyone would have wanted to help me build a wall, let alone 4.  It is validating to me that I must be doing something right as a person on this earth. I also had a ton of anxiety about getting this project done by today (rains!!!!!) So I am going to sleep well tonight. 

Situations that cannot be done solo can be a vulnerable place if you are hyper concerned about self-reliance. But they are the juicy parts of building community and I have dropped that part of my ego a while ago thankfully. Asking for help makes you healthier (my back would be destroyed right now) . It lends itself to a “favor” economy with those that value time as a “value system” (i’ll be there for you next time!) It can just be social and fun too (beers! High fives! woohoos!). It can also just be a good feeling to feel useful, wanted and mission critical. I know in my life the timelines of success can be long and the road there can be without validation. Big little projects like this can be a real boost to self esteem. 

Either way, I am feeling so good, I hope you are too. Thanks ya’ll!